Moon Lyrics for the Cancer

Combining the sabian symbol of a particular day or event with the astrological interpretation is something that I've been exploring of late. There is an interesting link that unravels itself. I like the sabian symbols because they bring a zing to the rhythmic moon song adding colors to its notes and a bang to its lyrics.

We are ending another New Moon phase which inspired a new song, as the lyrics scrolled across our hearts and we took notes and planted the seeds that may or may not grow into a master piece expressing our emotional currents and moon moods during the coming Full moon. From the conception of the new moon song to its birth at the full moon, we unconsciously work on that new song. And like most songs, they strive to have meaning, sometimes real deep meaning with roots going down in the darkest caverns of our inner world.

This New Moon Cancer 26 is in the powerfully nurturing and mothering sign, with the forces of the divine feminine in effect. It's an interesting experience for me personally because the Moon has now joined the Sun in my house of career. At this time each year, the spotlight is on my work, my public life. This year I am hosting the YONI RISING photo exhibition so its taking a lot of my time and energy. On the other hand, the Sun has its back to the most personal spot in my life which is my physical home and the emotions I store within the home I carry in me. Whatever the sun shines on thrives and blooms, while those places that do not get sunlight are damp, moist, or can even get dry and brittle. That's how my home and private life has been feeling as I go through the emotions and motions of finding a new living space beginning within me. The sun also has its back on the natural home of the Moon so a lot of emotional reflections, tides and waves, major changes and shifts are occurring. I should be familiar with this. I have been for years. I just wonder why I forget until I am knee deep in it. Yet, the knowing makes me rest deep inside, it cultivates peace even as the winds and storms blow around me. And to that I am grateful for the wisdom of astrology and rhythms of life.


The Sabian Symbol for the new Moon is Cancer 27: A Furious Storm In A Canyon Filled With Valuable Homes. Sounds horrible? When the mother is pissed off she doesn't play. She lashes out and lets everyone around her know, taking some down with her. This storm that this new Moon symbolizes is one that can be experienced like the last storm we had on the east coast that left hundreds of thousands of home without power. Or it could be a storm taking place inside of you or playing out in world around you.

In her book, The Sabian Oracle: 360 Degrees of Wisdom, Lynda Hill offers that "Violent Storm in a Canyon Filled With Valuable Homes’ shows that a ‘Storm’ has released its fury on those in its path. The ‘Weather’ that has been unleashed can reflect actual weather, or psychological or emotional conditions. The ‘Homes’ need not be "expensive", but are places that are 'Valuable' to the occupants, they usually feel protected and safe. Somehow, a ‘Storm’ has raged through. Exactly what will happen next may be rather uncertain.

Cancer teaches us about the Divine Feminine and this lunar cycle is spitting out lyrics that are about the home, its condition, while it's serenading us with tunes that make us want to connect with mother, think about our relationship with her or those who nurtured us; it could symbolize a single man with a deeper yearning to have a woman in his space and life so that it can have the vibrations of a complete home. Or a woman may be moving in with her lover to take things to another level or one may be leaving the other. The Sun and Moon in Cancer says create a cozy living space while Mars in Libra says do it with another. Or wrap your arms around the inner Mother. Its song is called, "I Want to Love Myself!"

I began writing this post on Thursday, the 19th but the storm took down my internet and it got restored this Sunday -three days later. Since then we had the Colorado theater shooting which killed and injured many. This is clearly an instance a furious storm for the shooter who unleased it in the theater that Friday night. I don't know the details and don't really need to know. I do know that anyone who opens fire on a large crowd of people or even a single individual is carrying a furious storm inside their emotional body. But the killer never gets any empathy. Oh no, it doesn't work that way.


With Mercury continuing in retrograde mode in Leo, this weekend was filled with delays and cancellations. I complied and took the time to rest, sleep and rest again.

Today, the Sun entered Leo at 6:01am est. We say good bye to the emotional waters, the need for security and the comfort of mother's lap to run outside and play with the fires in the lion's den she warned us about. Passion rises and so does the creative flame within us. Sometimes the flames need to be controlled or they go too wild. The sun is after all, an enormous nuclear reactor, and if not constantly checked, the Leonine ego can lead to a 'meltdown' or to 'sunspots'. This means that we need to pay attention to our critics as much as we do our admirers to avoid being blinded by our own light. Like the sun, Leo can not see the shadows that it casts. So we will have to rely on the Moon to guide us.

Enjoy the fun times that Sun in Leo brings! Ooooh! This feels like a naked post with no pictures. It's been parked in the draft box for days. It's time I publish it without the pictures.

Eco-Sensitivity!

Eco-Sensuals are really eco-sensitives. We are aware that we are powerful energy magnets and conduits constantly absorbing and taking in the vibrations in our immediate environments. Processing, sifting through, scanning and unfortunately taking in too much external energies. We are keenly aware of our oneness with our ecosystem in ways others are not readily conscious of.

While speaking with a girlfriend I consider an eco-sensitive healer we reflected on our sensitivity and the significance of protecting ourselves.  In recent conversation, Tonia told a friend that she he likes to keep her ipod and ear phone plugged as she travels on public transportation and her friend questioned whether she disliked talking with people.

For eco-sensitives it is beyond talking with others. I for one, am a social butterfly and love interacting with new and interesting people.  Yet sometimes that can come with a price and burden if not done consciously. We have the need to go deeper within during those moments so that we stay grounded and in our center. I find that if I focus inward then I am less overwhelmed with all that's going on around me. Since energy follows thought and attention, staying tuned in can help you hold your ground contain your power. Public transportations and public spaces are swamped with the excess collective energies that are foreign and even decaying in nature. Living in DC most people travel by foot, public trans or bike and a great deal drive adding to the pollution. So there's no avoiding the smog. You find yourself in the midst of electromagnetic entanglements, pools of energetic clutter, emotional projections of others, forces unbeknown and vibrations that resonate on lower frequencies. That's city life for you. But eco-sensuals think in terms of transforming rather than accumulating and storing that quality of energy in the body.

Eco-Sensuals are acutely aware of the shifts and changes in the massive field of energy that most metropolitans are not accustomed to sensing and understanding. It's just not something that is taught or explored in the early family dynamics, the educational system or thinking process of living day to day in a concrete structured world.

My friend is a doula and works a lot with pregnant as well as abused and emotionally challenged women of all backgrounds and ethnicity.  She gently reminds her clients to "shed the load". She senses distinct emotional holding patterns in a person when they have so much going on inside of them. They are often shocked when she tells them that she is able to sense their energy body. 

As an eco-sensual, I sense vibrations and energy patterns around me. Even while speaking on the phone with someone who may be on another continent. If its dense, its more easily sensed. Emotional energy - in particular - whether here or across the waters is simply energy and its transmission and movement travels faster than the speed of sound or light.

Since we are extremely sensitive to our ecological system, we make sure to have sufficient time in private, personal spaces rather than public spaces and large groups. As I get older and my sensitivity increases, its even more difficult to be comfortable in indoor large crowds especially sports arenas, concerts, clubs and such. If I am not prepared I can get eaten up alive.  I have to fortify, reinforce and quadruple the force field that I construct around me for protection. As the earth and environment shifts and is imposed by the plague of technology alone, we are loosing touch with our senses and our humanness. With all the unfortunate distractions, including pharmaceuticual drugs, humans are becoming more and more desensitized to our internal and external energetic environment, while others turn to mind altering substances just to be able to deal with the day to day energetic assault and congestions. It's like the effects of antibiotics. It not only destroys harmful bacteria but it gets rid of the good ones as well. Sooner or later the antibiotics or drugs loose their potency as the body tries hard to resist the unnatural effects. No different with environmental stress. We learn to deal with it, swallow it and sooner than later we begin to adjust to it, learning how to ignore it. But its still there, stressing our mind-bodies.

The sensitivities of eco-sensuals demand that we perform regular rituals of energy protection and clearing to safe guard us as we step outside into the force field of the fast pace, mechanical world and to then later return to our homes. We then have to make sure that we clear the energetic debris that clung to our aura or energy field so that we don't bring them into our homes and personal lives causing interferences. Taking foot wear off before entering my home space is mandatory. It's one of the ways we drag the environmental toxins and foreign energies into our personal living space.

Going into nature and natural places can offers us a soothing space for cleansing and recharging our internal batteries and breathing fresh air into our bodies. Plugging into the earth on a daily basis is essential to our well being. Otherwise, we suffer imbalances and discomforts that are often not our own and avoidable. Unfortunately this can lead to carrying the load of others and absorbing lower frequencies that can compound our own leading to depression, creative stagnation, and eventually terminal illnesses such as cancer. 

With our Womb temple as the largest magnetic bowl of water in our body, everything is naturally pulled down or absorbed into that sacred space.  Thus Womb healing is needed more than ever due to the constant assaults and pollutions that our bodies endure from environmental stress.  Water is magnetic, therefore it pulls and attracts not just water but energy. Think of the Womb as similar to the depths in which all waters of the earth - including  lakes, rivers,  bays,  water falls, streams, sewage systems and all else - flow right back to the largest water source on earth - the oceans.  Our oceans are our largest water resource, they are the basins through which all the water on earth is cycled.  Constant replenishing and recycling within us is paramount.  In the physical body, all  vibrations lead back to the largest water source in our bodies - our Womb (reproductive system). 



"I am the Chalice by Michelle Collie" 1st image credit
Seven Sister, Womb of the Pleiades 2nd image credit

NEPTUNE: Coping with Confusion!

Neptune is now in retrograde mode. The ruling planet of Pisces that permeates the minds of the masses, hypnotizing and mesmerizing us with its gaseous element is now slowed down offering us the opportunity to see and catch what we often miss in our fast pace modern life. Yet, Neptune is one of the most important planets affecting the modern world. Anytime we walk through the supermarket checkout line, we see this smoky planet - through the mirage of the magazines lined up at the checkout line. From the cover and contents of People magazine, Time, Cosmopolitan, Vogue, Essence, O, Oprah's Magazine, and even the likes of Yoga Journal, etc. They all delude us into believing that what you see is reality. Yoga Journal is at least 99% covered with specific bodies and poses of white women. This is a misleading image of what Yoga really is and has not only influenced so many but it has diluted the true heart and spirit of yoga. Anytime we log on to the internet to check our emails or merge into the fast lane of social networking Neptune is there subtly but intently penetrating us with marketing and advertisements of all kinds that lace the side bars, the news feed and pages. You think you are not looking at them, but your subconscious mind is collecting all that garbage.

Neptune is the planet that rules Hollywood, movies, celebrities, unaccountable fashion waves and marketing. This means we are constantly captured by the glitter and glamour, cultural phenomena and fascinations and often times sucked right into that blue gas or pink smoke. It is the gleam in the eye of the public, caught and refracted in a retailing prism. Neptune gilds popularity in a platinum sheen.

Neptune is also associated with collective dreams and yearnings for extraordinary experiences. It rules a culture's quasi-mystical aspirations and illusive quests. It is transcendent unity. Where ever Neptune is in your chart is where you can easily be deceived or fooled or where you can transcend boundaries and excel creatively.



Neptune is currently transiting my 5th house which is known to cause much confusion in one's romantic or dating life. This morning I had to catch myself when I got the third note from guy members of this new meetup group I recently joined. They are all intrigued by me, my name and one has asked me to go with him to our upcoming meetup next Sunday. I smiled and paused for a moment as Neptune whispered softly in my ear..."It's not what it appears to be." A soft whisper that was a loud reminder. In my dreamy state, I was excited to get the attention, I was appealing to the "we are one" believer in me, but all other elements of my being gave me the strength to simply pause for a cause and respond with silence. Is this another injured puppy that my unconscious self wants to save? What do I even say to him and the others? With Neptune waltzing in the 5th house, I can easily delude myself into thinking that the object of my affection is more than what they really are and I only see what I want to see in romantic situations. But it has it's up sides too. My self-expression is reconnecting with my domineering spiritual essence; I am drawing more and more from the magician in me and a creative fever is raising the temperature in me.

"Victimization" can also be a butt kicker as I found myself right in the middle of one. My dog bit the hand of a little girl that stuck her hand between the bars of a fence as I walked him on Thursday. We were on the street passing by, he was on his leash, the kids ran up to the fence, with the caregivers practically encouraging them. They trusting her words, "look at doggie"... jumped up and down, screaming with excitement and fascination only making my dog nervous and even more protective of me. She reaches her hand out and before you know it, he grabbed it probably thinking it was some squirrel or something. He too was caught up in a Neptune moment. The following day, I hear this unusual sound. I looked to see that my dog was snoring and snickering loudly in his sleep. He's been in hunter mode lately capturing a bird, chasing his dreams of squirrels and howling to the sounds of the sirens. I am still in a fog as to how the hell that happened but it did. Keeping a close eye on my dog while questioning what was going on inside of him. He's never acted that way before. Where's Cesar Milan? I've been crying over the incident - for the little girl, my dog, myself - most likely and who knows what else. The father threatening to sue me for everything I own including my underwear and referencing Fox 5 Channel News. Meanwhile the caretakers and the daycare in which they sent their daughter to is trying to escape their responsibilities. While the mother in me keeps checking in to see how she's doing. Are they questioning whether their daughter is in a safe childcare place to begin with? Or are they dreaming of an illusive financial settlement from this dream of me being filthy rich. The mother however, has been nice and civil but I am remembering that... nothing is what it seems. The 5th house includes children and pets, by the way. Am I dreaming that this is all a dream and that the real world is truly found when I go to sleep? There are always lessons and blessings.



Neptune's discovery in 1846, coincided with the early development in photography, genetics, and medicine - especially anesthesia with its ability to numb the senses. The sewing machine was invented in the same year. Spiritualism, American Transcendentalism, and general interest in the spirit world blossomed at the time of Neptune's discovery.

Neptune rules illusions, it has domain over what we can not see which forces us to rely on our senses and our faith and belief in a higher power that holds us together as one. We will all feel this transit as it will last through November of this year. Since astrologers refer to Black people as the Pisces people, it makes sense that after hundreds of years we are still dreaming or have a dream, as Brother Martin Luther King always reflected. Pisces is ruled by Neptune. No wonder I and so many others often say, "Wake the f@*k up my people!!" I mentioned "victimization" above - it is a long time symptom of Blacks and another downside of Neptune. We still don't see what's right before us and within us. Our creative abilities have been misdirected and capitalized on by others. We have faith in another person's god and religion and have forsaken our own. The lower end of Neptune has kept us living in a web of lies, illusions, deceptions and confusions.

It helps to know what area Neptune is currently moving through in your personal life and the astrology progressive chart will tell you clearly. Some questions to ask yourself or the collective during this Neptune Retrograde transit are:

What is the nature of your confusion? What is the major problem which you seem unable to resolve because of your confusion?

Is this the real problem, and if not, what is? What does preoccupation with this problem keep you from facing? What if you weren't confused?

How do you keep your self confused? What messages do you give yourself which keep you confused?

What are you avoiding facing? What do you know but won't fully admit to yourself? What do you fear discovering about yourself or others? What is Neptune protecting you from seeing?

What would happen if you saw your way out of your dilemma? If you had the answer what would it be? What would you have to face then?

If you need help understanding this Neptune transit as it affects and influences you (your life), then ask me for a reading or get one from another astrologer. And to all the Sun, Moon, Venus Mars & Saturn Pisces people reading this, you are most likely feeling this deeply and are more familiar with it than others.

Struck by Neptune's Rainbow Waters

I've been struck by Neptune's Rainbow Waters!! The magical liquid called 'TEARS'!

This morning I woke up from an emotionally touching dream. I quickly jotted down my symbols in my pad sitting on my bed. As I prepared my son for school and for my day, the tears began to well up and stream down my face. I was feeling a movement in my heart area, a sensation took over me. I'll call it LOVE. No clear conscious reason, I was simply present. I was feeling and it was illusive, yet very clear.

In our society, men in particular have been taught not to cry, to put a brave face on things when they get hurt and not show that they are in pain. But wombmyb can fall into this trap too, and all of us at one time or another might feel that the only way to survive is to close off our feelings and emotions so we can't be hurt again. If our pain is particularly deep, we might even try to hide it from our selves. This can make us frozen, rigid, because deep down we know that one small break in the ice will free the hurt to start circulating through us again. Yet this is why we create experiences like love affairs that go sour to shatter the walls we construct around our hearts. It's no heartbreak in the sense we've been taught. It's the walls crumbling, the space expanding so the heart can continue to grow and glow.

The rainbow-colored tears on the image above holds the key to breaking out of this 'ice-olation'. The tears, and only the tears, have the power to melt the ice around our hearts. It's okay to cry, and there is no reason to feel ashamed of your tears. Crying helps us to let go of pain, allows us to be gentle with ourselves, and finally helps us to heal.

We are miserable because we are too much in the SELF. What does it mean when I say we are too much in the self? And exactly what happens when we are too much in the self? Either you can be in existence or you can be in the self -both are not possible together. To be in the self means to be apart, to be separate. To be in the self means to be an island. To be in the self means to draw a boundary line around you. To be in the self means to make a distinction between 'this I am' and 'that I am not'. The definition, the boundary, between 'I' and 'not I' is what the self is - the self isolates. And it makes you frozen - you are no longer flowing. If you are flowing self cannot exist.

But Neptune says stop the madness! There's no you and I, no over there and here; no up, no down. We are ONE! And I'll wrap you in my fog so that you can come to know that. In the fog you can't see, therefore you have to rely on your sensing to move through. You have to trust a power greater than your physical self. Her retrograde motion is slowing us down to help us remove the boundaries, the lines, the 'I', the 'You'. And I am feeling the compassion grow in me. My dream last night magically touched down on my 2nd house in which my natal Neptune lives and it also featured my 5th house in which Neptune is currently transiting. Symbols of value, money and then children, romance, a lover were all highlighted! Neptune is so damn amazing! She's not playing with me or is she really? I've struggled with my 2nd house Neptune. And Astrologer Tracy Marks describes it so well with Neptune images that give life to and words to how I am when it comes to money, my possessions, my values:



AN UNEMPLOYED ANGEL - That's me! And "Angel" happens to be my nickname since I was a baby. But the universe has always divinely and magically provided everything I need including a beautiful family, a home Temple and all else... as I have no problem sharing and giving for nothing in return. Can't deny that I am blessed!!

A SURFER'S SOGGY CHECKBOOK: LOL!! Talk about confusion around money. I'll go to the back to make a cash deposit and hold up the line counting my money over and over in a pink smoke. But the goddess dollars I DO believe in and now use more than ever. Currencies that hold the face, the energy and exchanged with the hands of wombmyn who are serving the divine feminine rather than the masculine image and face of dead presidents.

AN ENTREPRENEURIAL LAMB - I am just that. I am not aggressive in trying to sell anything to anyone, I attract rather than pursue. I never get caught up in the rat race or competition. They come to me. Every write up or feature by major media entities came to me. They found me. I didn't go looking for them. ABCNews called me. The New York Times called me and so did the Washington Post and all others that featured me. I didn't go knocking on their doors. Why? Because I am feminine, receptive and gentle as a lamb, confident in my skills, gifts and healing powers. I've changed countless lives and help heal many more behind the scenes.

A SHOPPING CENTER ENVELOPED BY FOG - Goddess knows I hate going to the mall, I get confused and overwhelmed, and am way too sensitive to deal with crowds. I rather shop online or at a small, personable boutique or vintage store.

A UNICORN IN A DEPARTMENT STORE - Your guess is just as good as mine on this one. Standing out? Out of place? Evoking wonder and awe striking? Attracting more customers? LOL What do you get from this Neptune image? Tell me.

A SAVINGS OF HOPES & DREAMS - hehehe.... difficulty saving money as the Neptunian waters wash it away just as quickly as the tides bring money in. But this is my personal path and instead of resisting it, astrology has helped me embrace it and work with it. I trust that I can cash in my HOPES & DREAMS whenever I need to. They are like saving bonds. I can sell many of my creative ideas that are in abundance. Most of which I've simply given away.

I am grateful for this NEPTUNE transit and that of VENUS. It actually feels very familiar since my life path is summed up by the energies of my natal SATURN in PISCES - the sign ruled by Neptune. I'm a dreamer, says Neptune. But I'm a practical dreamer, says father Saturn.

When I cry, it melts the walls around my heart and it softens every fiber of my physical being. I am rinsed, cleansed and whole again, opening the portal for the abundance and love to flow in and for the presence of my Angels to be felt strongly again.

Would you like to learn about your Neptune or have a Goddess Love Reading? Send me an email - ecosensualliving at gmail dot com. I'll be happy to open the doors to your own Neptune world... maybe - like me - you'll just start crying to be healed again!



added inspiration from Osho Zen Tarot

10 Ways to Navigate the Cosmic Waters of Neptune!!

Poeticbeauty.co.uk
Neptune is an elusive, subtle planet of transformation which dissolves attitudes and behavior patterns of the past as it transits planets in our individual charts. Neptune is one of the most difficult planetary influences to handle. It causes life to become confusing and unclear, and under its influence people often believe what is not true. At the same time, it also has an ego-denying influence, which may make you feel discouraged, futile, undeserving and unworthy, or it can lead you to perform great acts of selflessness and self-martyrdom, says Astrologer Robert Hand.

Neptune is the higher octave and mother of Venus - the planet of love and beauty. She represents unconditional love and ecstasy. She's currently sitting on my natal Saturn in the 5th house which highlights self-expression, romantic relationships, sex & children, making me seek a sexual union that is a spiritual one. Have no fear she" says, your wish is my command! As well, she's stimulating my artistic creativity and drawing me to be with the healing waters of the earth while reminding me of my own oceanic and home birth at the edge of the Atlanta Ocean.

With that established, we are all going to need help navigating her cosmic waters and moving through her pink smoke during this transit. So here are 10 tools to help us during this retrograde transit that began June 4th, 2012 and goes direct in Pisces on November 11th, 2012.



1. Think - HIGHER LOVE! In fact, sing the words to Steve Winword's "Higher Love" to remind you. If you don't have the song, check out Youtube or the music sites.

2. Be in the fog. Don't fight it. While in the fog, become the fog. Imagine your body as fog, feel the amazing dissipation and melting of your physical body. For a time, we are not likely to be able to operate clearly or productively in the old ways in which we expressed this planet. Neptune will be eroding this old expression, withdrawing energy from it and using that energy to prepare us subconsciously for new means of expression. Trust your subconscious and give it time to prepare for the next stage in your development. As Tracy Marks says, "We need to understand fully that we are in a time of transition, vacationing upon an island in the midst of Neptunian waters, as our energy is being reprocessed to prepare for a future period of greater fulfillment where Neptune is dominant in our lives.

3. Clear the waters of your body. Nurturing and unblocking our bodies is very important. The womb and the male sexual organs need replenishment. Drink plenty of water. Add lemon to give it a citrus boost for a deeper cleansing effect. The womb is the most acidic part of a woman's body. Lemon water will keep it balanced. A sensual or therapeutic massage can help the waters of the body flowing smoothly. Our minds become clouded when we spend too much time in mental realms due to physical blockages. When the waters of our body are clear and flowing, our emotions are able to do likewise.

4. Swim! Visit the beach or other bodies of running waters. And definitely take healing baths in the comfort of your home and with others. I highly recommend, Spiritual Bathing: Healing Rituals and Traditions from Around the World, by Rosita Arvigo and Nadine Epstein. Another suggestion is to take color baths. Use natural food coloring to create colors such as blue which is Neptunian and oceanic or make it green for healing the heart chakra. And don't forget the kids, they will love it and look forward to taking their baths.

5. Practice forgiving yourself and developing self-compassion. This is the springboard for forgiving others. Begin with self. Neptune is the higher vibration of love and compassion. In her heart opening state, the pains and sensitivities of the past can wash over us, transcend our desires and needs taking us into a blissful state of inner peace and oneness with all.



6. Anchor yourself in your womb-heart. Shift out of the mind and into the space in which your womb and heart envelops and where water and fire meet. It's much easier for men to be in their sexual center, so here's a little push for the wombmyn who struggle. After all, the mind can easily deceive and trick you. During this Neptune transit it is more prone to playing tricks on you. The heart, however, will never lie or deceive you. Learn how to listen to and understand its language.

7. Fill your life with Music! Listen to music that stimulates your heart chakra. Soft, soothing, meditation music puts you in touch with your feelings. Massage your heart with music, let it move you into a trance. Choose the tunes that awaken your heart, arouses your sensuality and transports you. Let your intuitive wisdom come alive!

8. Take naps! Go to bed early. Dream! Neptune is about the sleep world where our subconscious self travels to dimensions outside the earthly realm. Sleep helps mend the threads of our soul. Pay more attention to your dreams and what they say, the stories they tell you, the answers they give about you and your life. A great place to begin making your dreams come true. Record your dreams. Keep a sleep journal right next to your bed.

9. Awaken your creativity! Regain contact with your inner child. Spontaneity, playfulness and creativity is possessed by this part of ourselves; it's the pathway to awakening to who we truly are. Dance, painting, poetry, photography are effective means of centering and channeling the energies of a Neptune transit, as well as experiencing the more celestial realms of the spirit of this planet.

10. Meditate! The inner realm and abstract dimensions are our sources of inspiration. Neptune dissolves all forms and structures and take you into the center of your being to discover the capabilities and power of our intuition and inner guidance. Only if you allow her to!


An astronaut is standing on the edge of a lake of liquid methane at the bottom of a large impact crater. Exploring the moon of a distant gaseous planet is a lonely and dangerous calling for a lone space traveler.


NEPTUNE is the eighth planet from the Sun in our solar system. It has 13 moons, the largest of which is named Triton. The other moons are: Naiad, Thalassa, Despina, Galatea, Larissa, Proteus, Nereid, Halimede, Sao, Laomedeia, Neso, and Psamathe.

For a reading contact: The Eco-Goddess @ ecosensualliving at gmail dot com

Eco-Sensual Living: The Spirit of Tea Time!

I am a long time, passionate tea drinker! Matters not the weather outside but more so the leaves of the earth that are inside. I drink tea for a few good reasons and during special moments:

1) it is a part of my daily eco-sensual morning ritual
2) it puts me in a meditative state of mind and slows me down
3) it enhances my journaling or creative writing moments
4) I love sitting and sipping tea with friends - its always on the menu when you visit the temple
5) I drink it for the medicinal power and purpose.

I energize my teas with solar power - Sun kissing my herbal infusions and giving it a powerful boost!
I buy my herbs (organic preferred) in bulk and create my own mixtures.

(L-R)
Jar # 1 - Red Raspberry Leaves - an astringent and general toner & strengthener of the uterus, helps relieve cramps from fibroids.

Jars # 2 & 3 - BLESSED THISTLE - a “bitter” that aids digestion and works on a congested liver. It increases breast milk and is an emotional ally to uplift spirits

BURDOCK ROOT - blood purifier, increasing circulation to the skin, helping to detoxify the epidermal tissues, it produces a diuretic effect on the body which aids the filtering of impurities from the bloodstream. By promoting perspiration, Burdock Root eliminates toxins through the skin. It is also known for inhibiting and slowing cancerous tumors.

YELLOW DOCK ROOT - increases iron levels and tones the intestinal lining and slows bleeding; a blood purifier, supports bladder, kidney, and liver function, great for bowel health.

DANDELION ROOT - excess phlegm can promote tumors. DR helps prevent cancer by breaking up phlegm and eliminating it from the system; improves kidney function, is an antidiabetic and contains phytochemicals with antifatigue activity.

INFUSING your HERBS is best! I place them outside in the sun before noon and let them sit there until the sun begins to melt and cool off. Then they are READY to do their magic!!

I AM COMMITED

I am committed to take more life in today; through deeper breaths I expand my heart, my chest and my lungs with the essence of life and with each exhale I give back life to the universe.

I am committed to LOVE today. To love myself and others unconditionally, to eco-consciously experience what that is like, to catch myself as I begin to fall into moments of non-loving and to laugh at myself while I switch back to the channel of loving again.

I am committed to fueling my creative fire and to keeping the waters of my womb flowing while allowing my sexual needs and desires to not go unnoticed. I'll know its a call from within and I'll take the time to listen and follow through.

I am committed to eco-sensually experiencing my body today - taking moments to remember where I live - making sure I discern what I let in and not forgetting to dispose of the waste that I took in.

I am committed to being with my feelings and accepting my emotions as friends. I will cry when I need to, laugh, be angry, be protective and fierce or even sad and vulnerable when its called for. I don't have to hold back my emotions like a dam, I can my feelings flow.

I am committed to participating in nature's theater, to moving with the dramatic moments while being one with its wonderful times. I walk upon the stage of life playing the role called for in any given moment; to have dialogues with the trees, roll around in the grass and take in the cues and signals nature whispers to me. I'll wave back to the leaves that wave to me, and whistle back to the bird that perches on the branch in front on me. As I walk the earth today, I'll know that she holds me up and never lets me down, she is both my home and the playground I carry in that secret space within the crystal cavern of my heart!

LOVERS MEDITATION - Love Without The Limits!

Golden sunrise moments with my lover melts my heart from the flames of fire aroused in the midst of this sweet morning's arrival. Spending at least 15 minutes with my lover on the back deck, doing a couple of partner yoga poses, breathing into each other's heart, through the union of our hands is the pill I look forward to popping. Taking a soul journey through the eyes of each other, his parting draws mine his with a magnetic draw as I looked into his eye to see a vision of his soul. What we both feel is indescribable; our lights glow brighter the longer we stare, growing and glowing engulfing us with its warm tingling sensations and what felt like a ball of soft, gentle,fluffy, cushiony light.

Nature's orchestra plays in the background with birds chirping and wagging their wing tails, grasshoppers skipping, worms wiggling, bugs bugging, squirrels rocking their waists to the tunes and the melodic notes that emit from the heart of earth's awakening womb. As we breathe, she takes away that which we no longer need. As as we exhale we give to her some of the life she's graciously breaths into us. It's an exchange with her and its a sensual exchange between my lover and I.

These are priceless moments no one, and I mean absolutely nothing, can take away from us. For 15 minutes no technology exists, no expectations, no interference from the busy humans - it's just he and I - the vibes of nature flowing through is feeding and tuning us up for a brand new day. Then we sit and sip our morning infused teas. He drinks mullein and I drink red raspberry leaves. We are totally bundled up, eco-sensual lovers in these precious timeless moments that holds something beautiful and healing within in; a new day awaits us and gives us a promise of love... without the limits!!

What's Love Got To Do With It?

Your VENUS can tell on YOU!

VENUS is the banner you wear that attracts your perfect partner or heart-soul mate! My Venus in Sag banner says... ADVENTUROUS! I love with a spirit of freedom, cultural diversity (its nice if he comes with an accent & speaks 2 or more languages), earth spirited and sporty fun and with a need to expand through my relations, otherwise, like a sunless flower I wither and soon die. What does yours say? We each have a specific set of cue cards for the individual or peopl...e we're going to be comfortable with. She is your innate goddess-given power to attract exactly who and what you want. Simple? Well, not really! If it was that simple many more wombmyn would have HAPPINESS - Venus's goal! Knowing and understanding the symbolic and spiritual meaning of your VENUS will take you to your happiness.

Do you understand the difference between attractive (good-looking) and being attract-ive (able to attract). Understanding your attract-ive power goes way beyond the promise of romance, your adornments or sexy shoes and into the realm of spiritual connection and transcendent heart-soul mate love. Understanding how to think with your VENUS elevates your attract-ive powers to a whole new level of sensual expression.

When the things, people, and ways we naturally love and enjoy are shamed, distorted, or one-dimensional, the same goddess that leads us by the hand to love also leads us to confusion. No wonder so many women are baffled about the real source of their attract-ive powers.

Astrology continues to teach me that Venus is not just about surface beauty but she is also about SOUL beauty, enjoyment and pleasure. The more you know what makes you truly and organically happy, the more magnetically receptive you become! My personal VENUS in Sagittarius helped me answer these questions:

What do you enjoy?
What makes life worth living?
What turns you off and on?
What give you wild, orgasmic unlimited pleasure?
What gets you in the mood?
What curls you toes and excites my heart?
Who do you imagine coming to you at night in your dreams, meeting you as your soul mate?

Navasha Daya, formerly of the group Fertile Grounds is a fellow Venus Sagittarius goddess. So is Tina Turner, Whoopi Goldberg, Jane Fonda, Christina Aguilera and Sinead O'Connor - just to name a few. (Don't confuse the Sun sign with the Venus sign.)

Ooooo Lala.... you must thank VENUS for showing you that the goddess of love is related to the rest of your life. She is 'relatedness' itself. She is EROS! Now you can THINK with your VENUS!! (Not think like a MAN.)

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Art sketch of Tina Turner

WHAT'S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH IT? Let your Venus tell you!!

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Eco-Sensual Knowledge

Photo by Steve McCurry

“The ancients did not gain their knowledge from books; instead they observed nature and felts its pulse, they felt the vibration of the earth and stars, the rhythm of day and night. They did not view themselves as separate from their environment but as functional parts of a whole. They were able to learn about themselves in what they saw and felt. Through rituals based on nature, especially the season, animals, and elements, people were able to enter into the spirit of what they saw. In this way they achieved inner knowledge.


"..…No separation was made between wo/man and God, between people and nature.
Oneness was recognized in all things.”
—Caroline Arewa, Opening to Spirit

ALTERING the Elements of CHANGE!

Reflecting on CHANGE this morning and just how beautiful it is with an intelligence and vibration of its own. Since my collective Green Womb: Egg Stone Journey, I've seen the spirit of change whirling around me through the voices, womb-hearts and spirits of the wombyn I share this journey with. But more importantly, this journey is sharing with me the secret of CHANGE!

CHANGE is a fierce leader, standing on its own, refusing to be pushed or forced. It full blooms on its own time, and when IT is ready. Any thing prior is a fruitless struggle and rejection of SELF. CHANGE works hand in hand with its lover - TIME.

We live in a world that is forever trying to CHANGE the state of everything. Not slim enough, not beautiful enough, addicted to something, not making enough money, not religious enough, not strong enough, not satisfied with life as it is, always needing to CHANGE something about self. I mean there is always something that someone is trying to sell you on changing. From coaching, psychotherapy, education, to mind and physical training... humans invest so much time, money and energy in trying to CHANGE something about them, about their life or about someone else.

What I am learning on this Green Womb journey is that CHANGE happens on its own. It is like a thieve in the night, it comes when you least expect it. It is the essence of unexpected pleasure that sneaks up through you. CHANGE waits patiently for you to make room to allow it, yet we are not very patient about it. CHANGE is always waiting, hanging around, pacing back and forth, seeking to find that portal, that doorway to get through to you. It is smooth and needs to be allowed, never forced nor resisted.

I've battled with food, and suffered the pain and discomfort through my body for some time now. I've struggled with deeply held emotions needing to spread their wings and fly. I've had my recent times of being lazy and letting my body lock back up. NOW, all that is CHANGING and all I did was INSERT the earth between my legs. I am no longer feeding, I am now deeply feeling; I am no longer split or disconnected, I am more connected, more aligned with my body and all vibrations. After all...I am FULL!! My Womb is overflowing and really happy.... that what I put in it is giving to it, feeding it, loving it, stroking it, rubbing it, repairing it, building it, strengthening it....not tearing it down, dumping in it or taking from it. The love vibrations of the earth now radiate from the center of my WOMB...spreading through every cell, tissue, organ, muscle and bone. I've stepped out of my own way.

Now ...Mama Earth's LOVE is spreading through me, emanating from my Womb... and....CHANGE ....is happening on its very own.

Rolling easily & effortlessly...CHANGE is life's promise to YOU. And it can be savored, enjoyed & effective when it is allowed to unfold in its divine selected TIME! ♥ ♥ ♥

CHANGE is a FLOWER it buds on its own!

Aching for Love!

Dear Eco-Goddess:

I am aching for love! Ever feel that way? I've been off the dating horse for over a year now - on a consistent basis. I may have gone out with a couple of men during that time but they were all one time daters. Nothing fancy, nothing to write home about. My interest level down!

I am becoming very concerned about my romantic life which of course includes relationships, love & sex. For me romance on a fluid basis must include those three key words. I believe that I may be overloaded with feelings to the point of emotional congestion and this may be causing bouts of depression and a "back-off" sign may be posted on my chest that even I can't see. Mixed messages? I want you.... but I don't want you. That is just how I feel and may certainly be projecting. Plus I feel frozen in my tracks. My last relationship was a soul buster due to the dramatic climax we underwent. Talk about emotional volcanic eruptions! They were the highlights of the closing chapter. But have I truly closed that chapter? This I now understand was a shock to my entire system and I may not have gotten over it in a timely and orderly fashion. I mean how do you get over a broken mind and a cracked heart?

On Mother's day, I ventured out with a man I met while traveling locally. Truth is he is not what I classify as "my type". But at the time of meeting, I was drawn to his energy field and introspect may have been sucked into it for all the wrong reasons. So in the spirit of moving away from putting anyone in that old detrimental category, I took a chance and allowed him to spend a few hours with me on Sunday. When he arrived at my doorstep, I immediately heard a voice inside me say, "hmmm.... he's pretty wide around the waist and don't appear to be solidly on his feet nor in his composure." He seem to wobble a bit. This actually is true but I didn't let it stop me from going out and having a good time. So I actually made the best of it and went with the flow. Truth is deep inside I felt a bit of an attraction but nothing that would hold a lasting frame. There seemed to be a few odds I was up against. But hey, it was only a first date.

At the end of the date, I suggested having a cup of tea but he said he's not a tea drinker. I am a big tea drinker and so I felt that we wouldn't be sharing blissful tea times together - that's for sure. During our departure time, he just said good bye and walked away. Later on, I sent him a text message to say thank you and good night but its Tuesday morning and he has not responded. Clearly a big message for me because it keeps resurrecting in my mind.

I've discovered a TV show on VH1 called "Tough Love New Orleans". I like that show because its pinning me down to face areas of relating that I've ignored or discounted. It's challenging me to grow up and pay attention so that I can relieve the aching feelings I have around making a love connection. Each of the women contestants teach me something about the ropes of love and the ones that pull the strings of the heart.

This episode in my personal dating life, is awakening me to myself. I know that you've always said, "It's not about him or the other person, its about me or self." And I can't help hearing your words over and over again as I realize that my feelings are actually hurt. Even though, I don't want him, the fact that he ignored my text and has not made that follow up call or outreach says it all! I feel sad inside that he was one person before we went out and now I am wondering who the hell he is. Is there something I'm missing? Or am I only facing the reality of my own feelings and that is... he's just not into me and that is only a reflection of the fact that I am just not into him.

Is it right and safe to say that it's my EGO that's trying to control the situation, its my ego self that's struggling with the emotions I feel inside? And if it is so, then how do I still honor my feelings, learn from this and move on? I am a freedom lover and so I don't need to talk to a man everyday. But this one is a bit strange and because I'm not accustomed to a man ignoring my follow-up or him not following up I am actually crushed. It's more so that I feel rejected in some way. My ego is not liking that at all! I wonder though, if he calls me... how do I respond or address this in an authentic way that does not compromise my integrity, my sense of self and self-worth? I have even begun to cuss him in my mind but I soon stop because I am able to call out my ego for its games. Or better yet, do I call him and express my feelings to him? Or just practice letting this one go? He owes me nothing. But what do I owe myself in this aching for love case?

Your advise and guidance would be greatly appreciated!

THE ECO-GODDESS: This one is perfectly timed with VENUS RETROGRADING less speed ahead today. It began its slow regression last month but its official today. I'd like to invite my readers to join in and offer advice to this lady who is clealry ACHING FOR LOVE!!

A Reading of the MOTHER Consciousness!

Birth Mandala by Amy Swagman.

I AM the DIVINE MOTHER! I am the infinite symbol of the birthing and nurturing powers that prevail the planet not only during the annual Mother's Day celebration as the MOTHER CONSCIOUSNESS take center stage - but at all times. So how expansive is your idea or ideals of the MOTHER? Is it just a day or is it a journey?

The MOTHERING path is not always filled with sugar and spice and all that's nice. In fact, most wombmyn have issues with their maternal mothers. So this day can bring up a lot of smoke from the dungeon within, while the media and social media flashes one-sided cards of the Mother's face. Mother's Day can resurrect painful emotional memories for some, and open up deep wounds for others. So what about those wombmyn whose earthly mother path is devastating? From being at war with their birth mother, being horrible in their role as a mother, to not being able to bear the ultimate fruits that label you as mother? No matter how anti-mother you are, you can always find peace with the mother essence as it lives within you. And this is a giant step towards healing thyself. You can begin by finding out your Moon sign - which symbolizes the mother, women in general, feelings - and how they all play out in your life. As well, you can begin to develop a relationship with the oldest mother and intuitive guides of all times - the Moon!

I am now offering mini Goddess Spirit Readings that embody the Moon, Venus & the Spirit of your Womb - all of which are divine feminine portals to your inner Goddess!! How does she need to be nurtured? How does your inner goddess want to be expressed? What are her needs? What is her style of loving and relating? What's the current transits to your Moon and the areas of your life they are affecting? These and other questions can be answered in a mini reading for only $25.00 sent directly to your email box. If you want a telephone reading then it is 30 minutes for $40, 45 minutes for $50.00 and an hour for $65.00

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The Moon's Story

One night 13 hungry ghosts, plotted and schemed to capture the moon and bury it in a hole, and cover it. In distracting Mother Moon, the hungry ghosts gathered up the cloak and threw it over Mother Moon. They tied a knot in the bottom so almost no light could escape.

Her light disappeared under the cloth and all that could be heard were her muffled cries for help. Those thirteen hungry ghosts jumped on top of her and wrestled her to the ground. They dug an enormous pit with their gnarled hands and dragged her down into the tomb. Then they rolled an enormous granite boulder over the pit and buried Mother Moon alive.

All that remained was the tiniest lip of glowing silver light around the base of the boulder. Now, even her muffled pleas for help could not be heard.

The world was enveloped by the darkness and the hungry ghosts were unleashed to feast upon the children,
now vulnerable without Mother Moon. Night after night, the children tried to find places to hide, disconnected
from one another and terrified while the ghosts ate them alive. They devoured them with insatiable hunger.

But there was hope. Even in these darkest times, there was one courageous and smart child who refused to forget. She decided that the only way her people were going to survive would be to gather a search party and set out to find and rescue Mother Moon. She formed a small tribe and set out for the forest.

After many nights of fruitless searching and near deadly encounters with the hungry ghosts, the search party decided it was of no use. It was time to surrender. They felt despondent as they turned back toward their village, knowing full well that there may be not a single child left alive to come home to. As they trudged along with their eyes to the ground, the smart child kept her head held high. She knew she must be watchful, for opportunity favors the prepared mind.

Suddenly, she noticed a strange light, a lip of silver radiating around the base of a boulder. “That must be Mother Moon!” She exclaimed, tugging at the hand of the child next to her. With a renewed energy and hopefulness, the children pushed the boulder out of the way. Mother Moon threw off her cloak and leapt from her tomb. She beamed at her children as she rose into the sky. With every stride, her light increased tenfold. She found her place again among the stars and once again her children were safe in her loving radiance.

In order to find the light of the DIVINE FEMININE as it glows in you, you must find the rhythmic light of the MOON as she shines in you.

It is not enough to celebrate the MOTHER on just one day or to see her in one way. LISTENING to the Moon's Lyrics and FEELING her as she glows in you...takes you into a genuine space that blends the complex energies of the SUPREME MOTHER so that you are never lost for long or separated from your FEMININE & INTUITIVE SELF!

Get a MOON READING! It will help rescue the lost Mother in YOU and will empower the DIVINE FEMININE as it lives in your. Schedule a Goddess Spirit (Moon) READING today! Men can also access their feminine self through a Moon Reading. This empowers you to relate to the divine feminine through your relationships with women and in its many ways. Email your info @ goddesssurya@yahoo.com

Moon Lyrics for the Last Quarter

The Moon's last quarter began on Saturday the 12th of May and will be in effect until Wednesday, the 16th @ 4:24 pm EDT. During the Disseminating phase we were instinctively more social and outgoing and we were poised to gather and disseminate what was gained since the New Moon. During this last quarter, we are intuitively assessing our prior moves this cycle, realizing that there are doors we opened that didn’t take us where you wanted to go. There were enemies we battled that dissolved into windmills. Dissatisfaction this phase is meant to make us wiser the next time around. No matter how the surrounding world behaves now, we need to recognize that our frustrations result more from our inner conditions. The task is to let go of illusions and face s-e-l-f. It’s not so bad. After the shedding we feel stronger.

This phase is like a monthly turn from autumn into winter. Let your many thought-leaves go. Admire the bare limbs of your essential nature. If you’re feeling restless, it may be that you’ve got a creative streak ahead of you. Don’t waste it battling those who “just don’t get it.” Not everyone sees around the next curve. Enjoy this pause. The time for action comes again at the next New Moon. Gather your will; sharpen your intentions. Breathe like an aware Buddha. Smile like the wise goddess you are.


MOON REFLECTIONS:
Relax with a little Analysis

To get the most from the Last Quarter Moon, make time for introspection. When something feels wrong this phase, ask, what I you need to release? This phase doesn’t always have to be gloomy, however. It’s just astrological tradition to focus on tension because of the LQ’s stressful square between the Sun & Moon. This is also a visionary time. Your psyche instinctively turns to the future.

The Last Quarter phase is a good time for positive (as opposed to anxious) wondering, as in “I wonder what will happen next?” Questions are powerful invitations, hollowing out a space for new information and experiences to come our way. We’re not trying to solve anything. We’re allowing our minds to expand for the possibilities that are just around the corner. The day’s Moon sign may help to send us wondering in optimum directions. Of course words aren’t the only expression of energy or mood. COLORS each play their own tune and resound vibrational messages as well. It is amazing to observe that on certain days, many are dressed in the same colors; also fascinating is noting who isn’t in tune!

Moon signs rule colors too. They often coincide with a day’s prevailing color trend. But just as with other Moon rules, this is not a pat formula. We choose colors to inspire us, to bring a new balance, to express our moods. Note which colors you’re drawn to on certain Moon sign days. Are you in tune? You may be choosing an alternate color to help you deal with the day’s energy. Over time we may come to notice personal or collective patterns.

Sunday morning, the moon shifted into the waters of Pisces at 7:42am EDT. Like Rodney Dangerfield, the invisible world often complains that it gets no respect. Don’t make that mistake today. Allow yourself to wander in worlds you can’t touch or see. Music can take you there as it did with me yesterday during Mother's Day. I sat out on the back deck as though I had put on my dancing attire to join Nature's choreography. I felt like I was in the mist of a morning symphony. I was aware of the birds soprano, the bass of the sun, the drum beats from those animals or creatures with feet. Pisces rules the feet so I moved my feet accordingly, so that the sounds of nature and the pulse of the earth would move through me. I also gave my feet the pampering it needs during this time. Ask yourself “What do I imagine?” This is a water Moon—fluid and formless. Its colors are dreamy ones: lavender, sea green, the splash of a rainbow. What are your dreams speaking to you during this moon phase? Pay attention.

Feet Art by Ayida Honor

On Tuesday @ 5:45 pm EDT, the moon waters begin to heat up with the fiery nature of Aries: The day’s mood might be hot-tempered, impulsive, impatient or enthusiastic and full of desire. Observe how others are expressing these qualities you feel in you, especially if you are challenged in expressing them yourself. Don't get mixed up, just watch and feel those energies as they exist inside of you. Own them! Keep yourself inspired (or slow yourself down) by pausing to wonder “Who am I?” Ask this throughout the day and remind yourself of the answers as you’re falling asleep. The Aries moon is a fire Moon. Its colors are bright and stimulating: oranges, reds, and burgundies. Where ever the moon moves through in your life on a personal level - the 6th (daily work, routine, health) and 7th house (committed relationships, partnerships, open enemies) respectively for me - you may need to do some trimming away of that which no longer holds up and supports your wholeness. Get ready to welcome the fire goddess as she rises from within the flames of your soul to do her monthly young fire dance on Wednesday @ Thursday!

It's SOCIAL Moon Time - TALK IT UP, NOT DOWN!

It's the Disseminating Moon Phase... Wed, the 9th until Sat. the 12th @ 5:47pm

You’re going to the dance after the harvest. What you reaped at the Full Moon is safe in the granary. There’s still the business of tallying it up, getting the best price for it at market (life does go on). But don’t skip this moment of celebration. Shift your eyes if you need to; but see that life is a party. And if your Full Moon harvest was bountiful, you might feel particularly generous, gay and carefree. If your work was hard and long, maybe you want to slip into your wild self. If your harvest was disappointing, you might be thinking about what why that was so. Whatever your feelings this Moon phase, a little introspection is good. So is talking about it. You’re poised to gather and disseminate what was gained since the New Moon. You might be looking at your relationships, summing the balance sheet of giving and getting. As you look around life’s bright, noisy room, you might recognize what’s still missing in your life. Or you may have a barrel of new wisdom to share.

Celebrate Your Life!

Particularly in the West, we can get so focused on what we don’t have, we may forget to honor what we do. There is magic in celebrating what you’ve already created. Metaphysicians know that acknowledging what’s good in your life draws even more good your way. You can do this by making a list. But during the Disseminating phase, it’s even better to talk about it. This is a social Moon. Do you have a good friend with whom you can do a little bragging? Let her (or him) know what you have in mind. Make a date when you both can share all the positive things that have happened in the last two weeks. Agree not to mention anything negative. Notice how you feel at the end of your mutual celebration. This is how it feels when your inner Goddess gets to dance in the energy of your success!

Moon Journal: The Goddess just Might Forget! If you were blessed with a new understanding at the Full Moon you may notice the intensity of that “Ah-ha” is fading. You need to change its form – from a mental understanding to something that’s visible in the world. What can you do to honor your new truth? Because this is a “connecting” Moon, you may notice that an encounter with another is particularly important this phase.

A Super Full Moon - Misguided Pontification

“This Taurus/Scorpio Full Moon asks us to become aware of the people and things we give the highest value to, and to look at the emotional trauma that keeps us apart. It’s time to question our values and beliefs about money, power, happiness and our connection to each other and to the Earth. There are powerful forces at work determined to keep the old system alive, regardless of how many people and places it destroys. But we are equally powerful, and the Cosmos is lending us energy to break-through our paralysis and stand up for our beliefs.“

This Scorpio Full Moon is hitting my 2nd house of VALUES and joining hands with my natal Neptune. Spiritual Values take the forefront and the rest lights up for me. This Super Moon has made me sit down to reflect on and make a fresh list of my values. And this list, to my conscious surprise forces me to revise and realign with what my values are today. The values we learn and develop as children or teenager or later as adults can and will change as we change. My personal values are evolving through circumstances with the external world and are changing as I write this post thanks to the help of the energies of this Scorpio Full Moon.

With this full moon comes the darkness of Scorpio that we all embody - death, sex, rebirth, change, transformation, dark emotions, dark thoughts and dark ideas. And instead of denying, I am owning and utilizing them to propel me forward and on ward with my mission on this planet. In my recent past life, when another approaches or chooses to interact or respond to me negatively I would quickly gather my frilly lily dress and compose myself with the need to be a little good girl, I'd retreat and reach out for the stars to bring in the light. I would shy away gave the darkness and the chance to allow it to reveal its message, its beauty and its direction. With Black Lilith conjunct this Full Scorpio Moon, the limitations are lifting and the light is shining into the darkness.

I am normally a direct and outspoken person, but when it comes to working my Mars - the energy of passion, anger, sex and war, I retreat before I battle (thanks to my Mars in the 12th house). I am not sexually aggressive, never knew myself to be (initially I am very receptive)and neither do I go around raging war, waving a knife in the face of another nor do I go around picking fights with others. I am able to remain cool until you try to f*@k with me. My style of fighting is strategic and through a spiritual warfare. This full moon culmination kicked in my Mars. I uncovered a new way to honor my masculine, my passion, my anger, my sexual energy, my ability to move and take action.

What I value is my family! I value the language of my heart and its openness and readiness to trust so easily! I value the creative powers of my womb! I value my right to be at peace and to be true and honest in my relations. I value my personal boundaries. I value the gifts of my soul. I value authentic relationships and those that are clear and accountable for their actions or mistakes. I very much value my personal living space as a sanctuary, a temple space in which my family and I can retreat from the harshness and drama of the world, where we feel safe and secure enough to breathe and be free in who we truly are. To have someone bring lower vibrations and destructive energy into my space and against me is disrespectful and a declaration of war. Yet my style is not one of the physical fights, its that of the spiritual domain where my army of soldiers and protectors exist and in line waiting for my orders. The last couple of weeks have brought moments that drained me in every way. What I saw with my eyes and what I felt were in conflict. This forced me to remember that the unseen world is much more powerful than the visible sphere.

I am no stranger to the human ego battles within relationships. I am no stranger to knowing and understanding that we humans react to fear with anger, anger that stems from insecurity, and with insecurity comes unnecessary drama disguised as reasons to fight or bite the hand that tries to heal you or even feed you. A misguided angry woman is a potentially dangerous woman latching out her tongue and slaying another with threats and violent acts. This aspect and my full moon personal experience can be described as....an injured animal, lashing out in confusion, to potentially cut the person trying to help. I hired someone to help me build my business. An exchange was a major aspect of this - my healing services for their business administrative and organizational services. After less then 30 days, a review revealed that they were not very productive days. I saw the many glitches and signposts I overlooked and the errors in my assessment or judgment (I am rather human). My final decision: Fire them! End the arrangement and go our separate ways before we go any further. Unfortunately it was not received well and thus the war began. Physical confrontation at first then a stream of text messages (misguided pontification) from them revealed the emotional womb poison (their Chiron in the 4th house)that sucked them under, but I kept to my focus and goal which required them to simply leave. Or so I thought.

The entire energy in my Temple space revealed a bad, disgruntled spirit that lingered refusing to leave in peace and accordingly, trying to cling to the peaceful, serene energies that they marveled over and craved in the first place. It was horribly draining and quite stressful upon my family and I. My physical self gave me warnings long before beginning in my womb. My womb felt like it was going to drop out of my vagina - never had that experience before. I was off my moon chart and lost track of my menstrual cycle feeling as though it was late. Then I developed (never before) rash like bumps that began to erupt all over my body. Do you still not get it my inner goddess and spirit family called in to me? I was playing with the devil while it called for kicking its ass. No doubt, a vampire spirit was sucking the life out of me.

Then on Thursday, an awakening began. During a very long and much needed eco-sensual walk with my dog, it became clear that I had to fight the darkness with darkness. I had to use my spiritual powers and gifts to bring about a shift - ones I had hesitated using before. And so it began... my first entry in to my new Book of Shadows. To begin, I was guided to instill a pyramid shield around the Temple which allowed a stream of light to penetrate and filter and saturate the space through the tip of the pyramid top. (Whew!! That was powerful in and of itself.) With the assistance of my armored spirit army that carried spears and shields, the teeth and venom of snakes, Pluto - god of the underground world took shape of a massive head roaring and flaming, doing what was necessary to get them the hell out of my space. I called up my ancestors, my friends and spirit family across the waters and on the continent; I called upon the prayers of local friends to assist, I called upon a friend who leads a spiritual center and another who is the priest of an Akan Temple, I called upon all the planets, the trees, the animals spirits and mother earths womb power to drive the bad spirits from my space. The next day they were out! In the process, they took my two angels that sat on my front porch. Perhaps they tried to remove the symbols of protection so they could believe that I was open and vulnerable or did they, in fear, seek protection from my angels? LOL! No idea what they were thinking but this was the most humorous moment of all. Those angels were the angels of my ex-boyfriend who left here angry and enraged. I knew that their disappearance was a symbol of the ending of such destructive and less than loving relationships! For me it was symbolic of making room for my new angels that had arrived in my life.

Lessons learned as well as lessons shared! It's never a one way street.

I thank the cosmic dance of this Super Full Moon in Scorpio, I thank all those who supported this transformation, I thank the spirit of the one that came and left. I thank all! And I am grateful to my own spirit family and the new members that have joined in. I am ready to move forward and further along with the mission you have entrusted me with Divine Mother, God Father!

** PONTIFICATION: The act of speaking out for the purpose of hearing oneself speak. Posturing...speaking to people that don't really care what you say one way or another since you're speaking solely to front yourself as "someone in charge". Speech or written communication that is generally pointless except to cast favorable light upon the speaker or author as if the message were a pronouncement from on high. Usually full of shit.