Shadow Light!

I've been working on my Womb Book project for almost 2 years. Since then, I've connected with quite a few wombn who have given me deeper insight and understanding into the infinite mysteries of the divine feminine as expressed through our Wombs and these connections have revealed just how magical this work is.

The Womb waters are stirred. Some flow like a river contouring what ever it meets, flowing around stones; others take the shape of what ever contains them, other currents are trapped, still and polluted. They reflect the many waters of the earth, each expressing and carrying their own vibrations; they keep the emotional spectrum of humans, each feeling carrying their own meaning. It's very deep and dark work! And it can be horrifying when you see your reflection in many mirrors and face the darkness of your the womb world you carry; unaware of the vast universe, unlimited consciousness and the underlying ways in which it drives us.

Womb work requires that we move beyond the superficial and warns us that there will be turbulence along the road ahead; there will be emotional hills and mountains, as well as depths and valleys we must undergo; there will be battle fields and peacemaking huts. This is not for the faint at heart. This is for becoming the brave, the courageous wombn who have seen through the outer limits and sense and know that there is an unlimited under world in which she carries.

Her Womb is the gateway between the past and the future, between what 'WAS' and what 'COULD BE'; her Womb stands between as the center of creation and what 'IS'.

Shadow World by VooDooMania


Mars is currently retrograding and it's lured me to do Shadow Work! It's amazing how beautiful the Shadow really is. It's unbelievably the container of treasures and gifts that we each carry within ourselves. It's where the juices mix and flow.

I've wanted to give up myself. I've questioned whether this journey, this work, the energy I put into it is all worth it. Today, I can say it is more than worth it. It is IT! It is what brings me fulfillment. It is what helps me to see that to heal is to seal, is to become whole again. This means allowing oneself, surrendering to oneself, being accepting of all aspects of one's self - the dark, the ugly, the light, the beautiful in each Womb including mine. None is better than the other. Each their own, each a part of the other, and both that of the greater whole.

I woke up yesterday seeing the world with news eyes. I realized that no one needs fixing. All is as should be. I AM perfectly who I am. The world does not need saving. It's perfect the way it is! I realize that everything is a result of man's thinking, woman's creating. Everything about the way the world... and its elemental parts... including humans and their air of supremacy over other living creatures... is what is it... is a result of what the human mind has conceived and manifested. That may be the only real thing that is broken about this world - the VIEW, the OUTLOOK from the human eyes. Other than that... I am perfect just as I am. All things I experience is a result of the choices I make and the outcome of those experiences will always depend on the choices made.

My dark side; that which society has framed as abnormal, my shadow essence; that which institutions and structures/units of society have rejected is just as important as the ones they have feared and I have learned to deny. The day is just as essential as the night, death is just as beautiful as life, sorrow is just as needed as joy, the inhalation is just as necessary as the exhalation, man is a counter part of wo-man, my shadow is just as vital and necessary as my light. I have and hold them with equal value and with equivalent LOVE!

Virgin Warriors

When my son's dad overslept and did not pick him up for school this morning, I flowed calmly and peacefully knowing that Mars truly is retrograde because it is totally out of character for he who never oversleeps, never misses work and always shows up for his son. It actually put a smile on my face because I feel that he deserves to rest. After all, this slowing of Mars is opposing his own natal Mars. He has no choice but to give up the fight and surrender to his inner need to retreat.

With Mars retrograding in Virgo it's moving to lock grids with my natal Virgo Mars in the 12th house. All that is Mars and martian are coming to the forefront and for me the spotlight is on the workings of the 12th house where anger, passion, sexual flame and energy lurks and hide within the darkness of my own self. My Mars energies have always sat in my blind spot often creeping up out of nowhere and when I least expect it. My anger used to be expressed like an alarm clock unexpectedly going off with a temporary loss of the memory of putting it on in the first place. Imagine waking up one day and your world has suddenly slowed down and you are standing, facing fragments of yourself that have found a home in the dark because you forgot to bring them upstairs to meet the rest of the family. Lights are on in my closet and I can see more clearly what has become my own demons. I am wondering if I can take or handle all of these fragmented parts of myself? Look at them! WOW! I can barely recognize them; parts of me that I've denied and could never articulate are suddenly alive and walking, talking, all grown up.

Who would have ever guessed that I'd be drawn to the mysterious, mesmerizing, dark and intriguing world of vampires? Maybe that's why my son is fascinated with them. We all have our favorite dark characters or archetypes we embody - whether we are conscious of them or not. Watched a movie on the night of the Aquarius new moon night about a university for vampires where a young woman disguises herself as a student to investigate the death and disappearance of her brother she has not seen in over a decade. She soon meets her self in the mirror reflection of a vampire - the most powerful Desmodus Draculae is who she is. Seeing this woman transform into her immortal greatness brought out fountains of hope that I too am transforming into my immortality. Deep sensations from my valley of pleasure made "Oooo" become a mantra! This she vampire radiated sexy, oozed out confidence as though it was her pleasure toy, walked like a dragon queen and was adorned with beautiful laced attires that enhanced her sultry, enigmatic, controlling and hypnotic demeanor. A taste of death that injects the juices of immortality and relocates you to life between the world of the living and that of the dead. I was totally impressed by the custom designer, the wardrobe producer, and all who decked up this vampire goddess.

It chimed through me like a bell, as I became increasingly roused by her lack of inhibition and her unrestricted sexual expression towards a stunning species of a male vampire whose eyes pierced hers with lust and hunger for the feedings of sexual pleasure. All that I saw in her was awakening in me. What would have normally been an ordinary moment of watching passion on the screen and receiving a wave or quiver through my body became a masterful quiet storm that tore down the walls of my inner world, leaving me totally exposed and vulnerable, floating in a sensual time capsule. The most beautiful part of this scene was the sampling of fruity Liberation, tangy Surrender, juicy Orgasmic pulses and the perfect blend of sweet & sour Ecstasy. Logic disengaged, feelings reign.

Mars slow movement is blowing through all of humanity and life on this planet. I love watching it intently like a theater screen. With these moments come an increase in intuitive awareness. I am thinking people up and they are appearing. Happened three times in a row yesterday. I feel like bionic woman, moving in slow motion & fighting demonic forces strategically.

A Scorpion rising client feels an awakening in her sex life and an increase of drama and conflicts around her that are pulling her in, forcing her to express. I love how she describes her menstrual phase each month as intense, painful moments of release and feeling like a snake shedding its skin. Scorpio is ruled by Mars. Others say they are feeling under the weather but truth is they are under the umbrella of a retrograde Mars which is forcing them to slow their masculine dominating energies down to avoid a full blown tsunami. Mars is symbolic of the male force as it exists in all of us. It's our aggression, our inner warrior, our destroyer, our sexual, primal self. And they are all whistling from within calling our awareness to clean up and clear out old rubbish.

My Mars is center stage in my life until Spring time. This means behind the scenes, I am re-learning liberation of sexual energy, facing battles with 'consciousness' as my companion; I am letting out the genie of my anger lamp that's been bottled up for too long; I am engaging in more self-loving and self-advocating behavior, taking time out, laying down solid new tracks for my spiritual rhythm, finding my long lost inner buddy and renewing our relationship as best friends, and giving way to the sexual prowess in me.


For some reason when I think of Mars in Virgo I think of.... virgin warriors!